Missing the connection we shared!!!

First I lost you, then our really close friend and her 3 month old son a month later! Wonder what I’m still doing here! I know that I’m still need here but without you to confide in what’s the point. I just know I need to reach out and wasn’t sure who to reach out to cause that’s the person that died. My friend I need you I have these messed up feeling that I’m just not sure how to process without you! I miss you, I still keep waiting for you to walk in and say you where joking!