My Mama Flew Away

My Ma died in a very crazy way. She had a brain disease that was undiagnosed for maybe two years? the last year of her life was full of anxiety and sadness. We found out she was dying a month and a half before she flew. I have so many feelings and thoughts right now. My relationship with her was so deep and complicated. It will be 5 months tomorrow and I swear, my pain is more intense than ever. I sink into this reality that she is never coming back, I want to give up. I feel like I am fighting for my life right now. My Ma was my life…